"I'd marry again if I found a man who had fifteen million dollars, would sign over half to me, and guarantee that he'd be dead within a year. " ~ Bette Davis.

Idle youth, enslaved to everything; by being too sensitive I have wasted my life.
- Arthur Rimbaud

Urge to come to terms with the "Outside,"
by absorbing, interiorizing it. I won't come out,
you must come in to me. Into my womb-garden
where I peer out. Where I can construct a universe
within the skull, to rival the real.
- Jim Morrison

And Later my macabre joy sours and I'm weeping for myself, unable to find solace in any of this, crying out, sobbing "I just want to be loved," cursing the earth and everything I have been taught: principles, distinctions, choices, morals, compromises, knowledge, unity, prayer - all of it was wrong, without any final purpose. All it came down to was: die or adapt. I imagine my own vacant face, the disembodied voice coming from its mouth: these are terrible times.
- American Psycho, Bret Easton Ellis

5 missed calls, 4 messages displayed on rt's phone when i got up to see it. how's having someone else's phone ring nonstop at 8.30am in the morning? it's a non-school day! i want to have my sleep, now i'm all up and awake, browsing pictures on fb and checking out twitter and all.

cand's comments on twitter on my nonexistent bro's pictures with some really really HOT models. the abs all well defined, tall strong build, yummy faces. if only i was on talking terms with my bro, i'll definitely ask him who all those people are! can you imagine, ME with the HOT models. hHAHAHAHAHA. as in, just sitting and chilling. oh myyyyy. shudder. LOL.

i really hope to patch things up with my bro, whatever that had gone wrong. i have to, my only same-blood-same-parents brother. i dont want to go home and see a sour face or try to figure out what his f problem is. i dont get how other siblings can get along so well but mine's just.. what? i've got a bro?

ok, enough morning whine for now. i'm going to try to get back to sleep.

oh and before that, should i go to a friend's party tonight or fishing with the folks?

You are not here merely to make a living. You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision, with a finer spirit of hope and achievement. You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the errand.
- Woodrow Wilson

"The longer i live, the more i realize the impact of attitude on life. attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, education, money; than circumstance, than failure; than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. we cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% of how i react to it. And it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes."
-- Charles R Swindoll

My swap partner this round was Mike mojave3ooo from Canada and he did an awesome job! His parcel arrived today in time for the weekend and let me tell you, I'm one seriously happy camper!!!

( Check out the goodies! )

apparently, i wasn't going to swap anymore for a long time, but i lied, signed up anyway, was paired with dabble and started salivating in anticipation.
 
( wounded box says what? )

“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”- unknown

“Some people think that it’s holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it’s letting go.”- unknown

“The loss of love is not nearly as painful as our resistance to accepting it is.”—Tigress Luv

"Life is all about falling... living is all about getting back up."
-Unknown

(if anyone knows the original author of that one, please share their name with me.)

If I tell you I love you, can I keep you forever? ~ Casper

If you live to be a hundred,
I want to live to be a hundred minus a day
So I don't have to live a day without you.
~ Winnie the Pooh

Love is a song that never ends.
~ Bambi

The eye is always caught by the light, but shadows have more to say.
- Gregory Maguire

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
- Jimmy Dean

To reach a port we must sail, sometimes with the wind and sometimes against it. But we must not drift or lie at anchor.
- Oliver Wendell Holmes

 Guy:  You mesmerized me when I first saw you. :) Not many people can do that, your smiles damn cute :)

Awww. my heart melted upon reading the text.

Said by my best friend to my prospective boyfriend:

"You know those gray, windy days that get you down? Know how the clouds part and the sun shines warm and golden on your face for a few minutes before disappearing into the clouds again? Renata is like that. If you want to hold on to her, you gotta be really special."

I cried, a little bit.

To truly love something, you must first give it a chance to fail. If it survives, it is going to be stronger than ever. Distance is pure proof of this, and forever we will love if we survive.
- Author Unknown

Distance doesn't matter if you really love the person, what matters most is your honesty and trust for that relationship to work out.
- Author Unknown

"It's never too late to be who you might have been."
-George Eliot

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concertate the mind on the present moment."
-Buddha

"We waste time looking for the perfect lover, intstead of creating the perfect love."
-Tom Robbins