over the last two days i've been introduced to more profanities than i've EVER seen/heard.
one mere lecture and another paper written by my prof and i can probably put a drunken sailor to shame.
not that i will though.

too much to do and too little time.
how i wish getting a degree was as simple as reading paper after paper. i could learn to love higher education then.

need to stop procrastinating and start studying. GPA for this sem is probably drowning in mud.
need to stop shopping impulsively too. and yes i admit, i've got a problem there.

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some people need to start thinking for themselves and stop depending on others to feed them.
if i'm to tell you how to do everything and what to do, i might as well do everything on my own.
isn't initiative and all really important? well, it doesn't seem to be the case for some people.

can't wait for 15th november. i don't even think i'm looking for a good grade. i just want to get this over and done with.
never want to go through this again.

this is why i hate project work.

[edit] i didn't manage to upload all the pictures till today, i.e., sunday. back to school tomorrow :( will upload little india pictures when i get them from jo. it has been an awsome week! enjoyed every day of the week except today. major cramps :( anyhows, enjoy the pics! :)

i'm loving this recess week but it's coming to an end. need time to pass slooowly! :(
i've been doing everything but study...simple can't find the time!
oh wells..i'll suffer later. play first think later.

- caught up with the loves on wed :) lots of pictures under cut!
- out with the cousins on thursday..no pics cause they're all guys who happen to be camera shy :( melodyyyy i need you to come back so i wont be the only female at all our gatherings!
- little india with val and jo today...walked like mad. from dhoby ghaut, to pomo for jap lunch, to selegie, to mustafa. i could have died. few pictures, will post when i get most of them. dinner with the parents tonight was good though :) feel so guilty since it's my first dinner with them since they came back.

enough said...i'll flood this place with pictures from wed :) image heavy!

OH BY THE WAY, i got scolded by my mummy for wearing a white flower in my hair. apparently it means your parents died. to think val took my flower and made everyone try it on. whatever. i think my flower looks good.
and i realised the shirt i was wearing (my brother's) looks MASSIVE on me.


( Happy pills :) )

ice cream buffet with the girls today :) i'm going to die drowning in my own fats while elaine dies happy with a smile on her face.
i don't think i can stand the thought of ice cream for the rest of the year. except maybe calamansi sorbet :) yum yum. i'm still thinking about till now! i knew i should have had another scoop.

anyways, we stuffed ourselves with ice cream and dessert...or rather, the girls stuffed themselves silly (we have never seen elaine eat this much in the past 7 weeks). they had like 9 scoops + lots of waffles + profiteroles + cakes + cookies + idon'tevenknowwhatelsetheyhad. they're quite a crazy bunch. i had 4 and a half scoops of ice cream, 2 little profiteroles, a few strawberries, and a slice of strawberry tart and i nearly died. haha and i wasted lots of ice cream by just taking, tasting once, then leaving it to die a slow death. not my fault there was no tasting.

GETTING FAT. and this recess week is not helping :( at all. gonna go on a massive diet when school starts. i'm serious this time :( 
dinner with the lovelies tomorrow :) hope we'll be as a whole!

lots of other pictures that i've got to get from the girls, but i know that if i wait for pictures i'll procrastinate putting up this post and it'd never get done. haha. so here goes......

( happiness in a scoop. )

school's out for a week! finally :) busy is an understatement if i were to descibe my 1st half of the semester. i can only imagine the work load for the next 4 years.
tests, assignments, proposals, reviews, plus TONS of reading. there's only one of me and 24 hours in a day.
2am and 4.30am bedtime doesn't sit well with me.
but i still love school. i just hate the work that comes along with it. that, and parasites that don't do work for project but appear so goodytwoshoes in class. annoying much.

i can't wait for the coming week! it spells shopping, food, catching up, and screams SLEEP.

the parents have been away for a week! can't wait to see them tonight :) 
in the past week i've been spending lots of time with my grandparents. they worry me so i've been taking time to visit them and all...3 times in the past 5 days. i'm so proud of myself :) it's not a chore really...i love them with every fiber of my being. the thought of age claiming it's fee is heartbreaking.
i baked banana cake and mooncakes with them on friday and saturday :) yum yum...the mooncakes didn't turn out as well as they used to, but i love them nonetheless.

i hope angela enjoys the mooncake despite the mooncake tragedy and feel less homesick :) will be bringing the ones i made for the girls on tues...hopefully we'll have space for mooncake after ice cream buffet! 

dinner with the greatest babes on monday! can't wait! miss you girls like crazy!

on a more morbid note, i've been putting on so much weight :(
eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat eat.

but.....i'm going to eat even more during this recess week. will diet when school starts :)

He saw that your path was difficult, and a cure was not meant to be, so he closed your tired eyes and gave you wings to fly.

it's been slightly more than a week since you left and i've put off doing this entry because i just can't find the right words to say.

no farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye. you were gone before we knew it, and only god knows why.

i dreamt of you 2 nights ago. i dreamt of you lying in your casket. but your fingers moved. then you stired. your body turned. your message tone went off than you woke up to reply texts from people who had to call and text you when they first heard the news cause they, like i, thought it was a bad joke. and thereafter you complained about the amount of makeup on your face. it couldn't be true, even in the dream. but nobody cared as long as you were back. you were a miracle.

i don't know what the dream was supposed to mean, but it was afterall, just a dream.

when i first heard the news, i didn't believe it one bit. i thought it was a bad joke. or that you were pulling one of your MIA stunts again. my first instinct was to call you. but i couldn't bring myself to do it in case you didn't answer my call.
it didn't feel real at all. not until i saw your picture, pretty as ever, in front of your casket. i could literally feel my heart drumming against my chest.
no. it didn't even feel real then. it was real. but it didn't feel that way. it was nothing more than surreal.
never would i, in my wildest imagination, thought that a girl like you, would do something like this.
the world lost a wonderful girl the day you left.

i'm really sorry you felt you couldn't confide in anyone of us. your personality played a major role in this i guess...you have always been one to bottle up your feelings than burden someone else with your troubles. you're too considerate for your own good. you never let anything out even when we probed. your reply was always "no la..i'm fine!" and you'd switch to that bubbly mood again.
i guess that mask finally got too stifling.

i'm not sure if i approve of your act of stupidity. we all have problems. we deal with it. the only comfort that comes out of this is the knowledge that you're in a better place, and that you're happy now. well, you'd better be. chances are it wasn't an act of impluse. have you been toying with that idea for a while? was the night before just the last straw? we'll never know now, but that smiley you added insinuated it wasn't impulsive. and it makes us want to smack you.

we called ourselves the greatest 8, but we could never make the whole after secondary school graduation. 4, 5, 6, 7, but never 8. when tree flew back upon learning of your demise, we had the whole pie. but it was a reunion for the wrong reason. and pointless too, seeing you were lying lifeless. your passing will not reduce us to 7. we are the greatest 8, and we'll stay that way.

i hope heaven's as pretty as we mere mortals make it out to be. it must be, because he only takes the best.

we'll miss you nicole.

we'll miss you in all your unglam glory -


















we'll miss being silly and stupid -
























we'll miss that pretty face and brilliant smile -











most of all, we'll miss having you with us -
































Although we'll miss your cheerful smile here on earth, it will brighten angels' days for the rest of eternity.




i will, without a doubt, miss you a whole lot.
6 years of friendship seem awfully short. too short i'd say.
i hope the pain ends now, though i wonder if there was a better way to say goodbye.
though i wish it didn't have to end this way, but it's better where you're going. i bet the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here.

love you heaps nicole lim hui ♥
rest in peace.

p.s. btw, i heard about your heavy skull. wonder if its density and your being dense had any correlation :D

so much to do and so little time.
my entire weekend just zoomed by.

driving, french, sleepover, driving, and before i know it, the weekend's over.

anyways, i need to get pictures and upload pictures and the likes. this journal is getting a bit too wordy.
but, like i've said, no time.

val's new toy poodle is superbly cute, but it's too whiney and it chews on everything cause it's teething (hopefully that's the reason).


DRIVING PRACTICAL ON TUESDAY!
OH GOD I NEED TO PASS. I'M DESPERATE.
DRIVING LESSONS ARE WRINGING MY ACCOUNT DRY.

Miss Tang has finally received an offer from a local uni :)

now i need to work on my appeals to change courses and pray that i receive the most important and desired offer.


bye bye econs at uwa. bye bye law at tasmania. it's quite sad really. as much as i would love to take up those offers, they're way too expensive :(

somebody, anybody, please tell me some useful stuff about linguistics.
i found ros's and siti's questions quite tough and i've got a feeling it'd only get tougher on monday.

oh god.

i had a conversation awhile back on interviews for econs if i was granted one, that i've been out living in delusion for the past half a year and know nuts about the economy.
even so, i think i'd probably still have something to so as compared to "the human mind is only capable of handling 2 languages - discuss."

i hope i get an easy peasy question :(



btw, i've been working, and i kind of enjoy it :) not how far it is though. but still.
so cool that it's a french mnc and french lessons are gonna start soon too! but again, the french school is bloody far. they should just build another campus in the east :(
transport fares kill.

incoherant and wordy entry, but oh well.
lot's been going on left right center and i feel good.

I've gotten offers from UWA and Utas. But I don't think my parents want to spend 25k per year for 4 years on school fees alone.
Yes, I've been praying for an offer. But a local offer.

Please? I really just want to get into NUS/NTU.

I really really don't want to go to SIM. REALLY don't. i don't think i deserve to. my grades are not that bad. at least i see As and Bs.

Oh god i hate this :(

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My laptop's dying.
That's probably why I'm posting an entry - so I  can delay turning it off. I'm worried that it'd never come back on once i shut it down :(
And my mother can't find the extended warranty that she insisted on keeping for me so I won't lose it. How ironic.

Pictures in the next post! If there is one that is, assuming my laptop decides to extend it's stay on earth.

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